Hetti Harper documents her journey from involvement in spiritualism and the occult to faith in Jesus Christ. She reflects on the experiences and events that led to her conversion, deliverance, and the lasting impact this transformation has had on her life and family.
After living for more than half of my life under the weight of trying to find some mental relief in all the wrong (and darkest) places, in 2023 I found myself on my knees on a cold bathroom floor asking the God I didn’t believe in to either take my life or do something about the spiritual battle I had found myself in. In his mercy, he answered.
In the years running up to my radical salvation, I had become enamoured with Spiritualism - mental and physical mediumship, ancient spirit guides, energy healing and remote viewing. I had experienced a strange and uncontrollable “spiritual awakening” that quickly opened me up to the spirit realm without ceasing and I felt a deep pull to walk into what felt like a calling.
During the COVID lockdowns I would sit for several hours a day in a meditative state, astral projecting
During the COVID lockdowns I would sit for several hours a day in a meditative state, astral projecting and leaving my body to go into the spirit and interacting and communicating with entities with information about my ancestry line, personal relationships and the universe itself. I felt like I had control for the first time in my life, but it didn’t last long.
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A couple of years later, I found myself caught up in the more overt side of the occult, suddenly encountering spirits even I knew to be evil and my false world where Spiritualism was safe began to crumble. I could no longer go into the spirit without being severely attacked, I could no longer sleep without being spiritually attacked and I could no longer function. I was in constant mental, physical and spiritual torment and I knew I needed to get out but on this side of spirituality, there is no way out.
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My “spirit guides” couldn’t help me, my dead relatives couldn’t help me, the Spiritualist community couldn’t help me because there is no light to be found in any of it. There is no good and only evil there, I wasn’t going to find God there. After many 3am visits to my bathroom, with the room spinning, I discovered that the only thing that lessened the agony I was in was kneeling on the floor. This is where I found myself most nights, crying out in the spirit for help, until one day I felt the urge to cry out to God and I made my very first prayer.
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Several months later, a close friend out of the blue told me about the Christian principle of deliverance and the door to finding out who Jesus was began to slowly open.
Several months later, a close friend out of the blue told me about the Christian principle of deliverance and the door to finding out who Jesus was began to slowly open. Suddenly everywhere I turned I was encountering more and more information about Jesus Christ and the God of the Bible and the truth of who Jesus was and is. I watched pastors online talking about mediumship and divination and how it was an abomination to the Lord, about Jesus casting out demons in the New Testament and how he had defeated death on the cross.
Every time I heard his name I felt spiritual power like I had never experienced, I felt the fear and hatred the unclean spirits in me had for Jesus. Hearing about him, I felt true hope for the first time in my life and I began experiencing deep moments of unimaginable joy as I encountered the Holy Spirit. I knew that this was the freedom I needed and I suddenly knew that Jesus had always been the only way to freedom. I began to pray and speak to Jesus and I began hearing God’s voice calling me towards him day by day. I found a small Pentecostal church which also had a deliverance ministry and after a powerful prophetic word from my now close friend that first Sunday, I publicly gave my life to Jesus and I have never looked back. I received my deliverance, I got baptised - I even stopped smoking overnight! It has been the most beautiful few years of my life and I am so grateful I get to fall in love with Jesus more and more. His love has been so healing that it’s hard to even comprehend what life was like before I met him.
I now have the privilege of writing music about my love for Jesus and what he’s done and I have been able to watch my dad have a supernatural encounter with the Holy Spirit just these last few months, after seeing the complete transformation God made in my life. My entire family line has been irrevocably changed by and for his glory.
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