I'm trying to be content, but I want more from God!

Navigating a chronic disability, mum and writer Danielle Finch opens up about the tension between contentment and the deep, persistent longing for healing that can feel impossible to ignore. 

I have talked a lot previously about healing, or lack thereof, with regards to my disability. I have a condition called Ehlers-Danlos Syndrome which causes me to struggle with chronic pain and fatigue on a daily basis. I use a wheelchair a lot of the time and now have a stoma as my digestive system has decided to stop functioning.

Despite the struggles, I have ultimately come to the conclusion that I feel most at peace when I accept God’s sovereignty, knowing He can heal me and may well do so in the future. But also recognising that I can still live in His goodness and purpose for my life here and now as a Christian with a disability.

But I have to be completely honest, there are some days when the desire to be healed feels all-consuming.