After multiple suicide attempts - I've learned how I need to engage with God to overcome the darkness

Writer Hope Bonarcher explains how God's word delivered her from the extreme hopelessness that led her to attempt to take her own life.

Suicide. It’s a word that carries so much weight, one of those darker hued words that invites us to speak in hushed whispers. To admit that I have attempted suicide multiple times isn’t easy. Truth telling often isn’t, but it is the truth that sets us free and freedom is worth the small price of discomfort. Life is multilayered, from the heights of inexplicable joy to the depths of unspeakable despair and every emotional experience in between. 

Christians are often thought of in wider society as vanilla, puritanical, beyond the murkiness that trips up common people. In reallity, many believers have experienced an opaque darkness so thick that leads us to cry out to the one who dwells in unapproachable light.